Curse

Mistress Eyahl · Sep 10, 2005, 12:50 AM // 00:50

I'm gonna come off as "the insensative one" which is nuts.. but oh well.
When you're able to end your life, you're in limbo. Devoid of emotion. Any contact with another person will snap you out of that.

Zehly, hon.. if you want to ask everyone how much they care about you and how much they want to help and want you to stay then say it outright, no-ones gonna call you arrogant or selfish they all know what you've been through.

Don't put people through the "Omg she's gonna kill herself" pain though, just ask for attention and appreciation and they will give you what you deserve.

chris_nin00 · Sep 10, 2005, 12:52 AM // 00:52

Quote:

Originally Posted by zehly

All I want to do is be back with her and if that means leaving one world to go to the next, then that's what I have to do.

You are killing me here Zhely. Doing bad things not only hurts yourself. It hurts people around you, like us. WE need YOU Lain. So please think about us too.

maybe this'll cheer you up.

www.bored.com

Hey, I try

Laughter is the best medicine.

zehly · Sep 10, 2005, 12:58 AM // 00:58

I think I'm going to go to the hospital now.
Mistress, you're wrong about me, but I don't hold it against you.

I'm going to call 911 now. I'm getting off the computer. I can't do this anymore.
I hope I haven't done something that cannot be undone. My head hurts too much. I need to take more tylonal. I need to stop drinking. I want to stop living, but I can't, but I'm afraid its too late. Please don't be mad at me.

chris_nin00 · Sep 10, 2005, 01:02 AM // 01:02

Quote:

Originally Posted by zehly

I think I'm going to go to the hospital now.
Mistress, you're wrong about me, but I don't hold it against you.

I'm going to call 911 now. I'm getting off the computer. I can't do this anymore.
I hope I haven't done something that cannot be undone. My head hurts too much. I need to take more tylonal. I need to stop drinking. I want to stop living, but I can't, but I'm afraid its too late. Please don't be mad at me.

Hey you can come to my house, I live in Virginia too.
...shes probably at the hospital right now.

Ps.
Address
King Cobra Ct. 2027A
Hampton, VA 23665
anytime... except not in the morning.

Mistress Eyahl · Sep 10, 2005, 01:04 AM // 01:04

I guess I'm wrong about you needing love and attention, I'm sorry. I know my words are striking a defiance in you, you probably hate me but attention from people who care IS what you're gonna need for weeks and months to come. There are nicer ways to get it though and trust me, people will NOT ridicule you for asking for it.
Anyone who does doesn't know what it's like to go through pain equel to what you are.

Don't listen to anyone who says there are people worse of than you. I don't care if there are people dealing with cancer better than you might deal with a broken nail... crossing your threshold for emotional pain is crossing your threshold for emotional pain... end of.

I know what it's like to lose a loved one, to see no future. My life at one point was a tunnel with absolutely no light and there was no other way out. You'll say I don't understand but I've crossed my line twice. I've BEEN there... I know

I won't say let people help you, cos it's a shitty thing to say. You can't be helped. You'll feel that way but it's not gonna stop people trying to help I'm afraid.

Loviatar · Sep 10, 2005, 01:09 AM // 01:09

[QUOTE=Mistress Eyahl]I'm gonna come off as "the insensative one" which is nuts.. but oh well.
When you're able to end your life, you're in limbo. Devoid of emotion. Any contact with another person will snap you out of that.

QUOTE]

no you are wrong

talk to any suicide hotline volunteer who is talking to a person and after hours of talking they still kill themselves.

they are not in limbo they are very much aware and they are HURTING.

if simply talking would do the trick ther wouldnt be all those suicides where everybody is right there in person trying to help and they still kill themselves.

not insensitive just mistaken

chris_nin00 · Sep 10, 2005, 01:14 AM // 01:14

Nothing left to do guys...
shes offline...
3 hours...
Lain, you are in my prayers.

Amen

Mosch · Sep 10, 2005, 01:19 AM // 01:19

Nobody of you knows me, I don't know anyone of you.
Now that we have this out of the way, let a total stranger tell you that

You know what, scratch that, that was a really bad start. We don't know each other so I do not have any emotions that could get in the way. Just know that I have actually calculated the length for my rope and that the only reason I am not dead is my girlfriend (now fiancee).
I won't go into all that, it's just... it gets better. Yeah, stupid phrase, I know, still it's true.

And yes, I know she's offline, I'll still post it, maybe it will be read, maybe not.

conker · Sep 10, 2005, 01:21 AM // 01:21

i think shes somecrack head teenager that has no friends in real life nd gets made fun of and is about to kill her self lol jk

Mosch · Sep 10, 2005, 01:23 AM // 01:23

conker, seriously... go away.

Manderlock · Sep 10, 2005, 01:24 AM // 01:24

Yes conker, we had one like you in the other thread. You need to grow up, or leave. The grown ups are talking

Mistress Eyahl · Sep 10, 2005, 01:25 AM // 01:25

The grownups would ignore him.. he's just looking for attention.

Dac Vin · Sep 10, 2005, 01:29 AM // 01:29

So damn true...

Anyway, I just wish for the happy ending...

chris_nin00 · Sep 10, 2005, 01:32 AM // 01:32

Its not about being grown ups guys, its about being mature. He added the j/k after all, just a little laughter to brighten up my day.

And if what your saying is true conker, well...nvm
Conker is somewhat right in way. A person needs real friends, one that you can talk to, play with, dance with, laugh with, not some stupid councilor who doesn't even know the person. I believe there is still somewhere out there for Lain. Stay strong.

BTW I'm not a grownup. I'm a 15 years old.

Aniewiel · Sep 10, 2005, 01:39 AM // 01:39

Since Zehly is offline, there is nothing to do but wait it out. Let's hope she posts soon.

And, given that the trolls are on the loose, this thread will close. Someone who is hurting doesn't need people like Conker pouring more salt into wounds already huge and painful.